My name is Ellen Blackwood-Costa. I was raised Catholic all my life. I attended every
Mass observed every Holy Day and lived out my mothers Christianity every day of my life but never finding my own. As a young adult I finally gave up the quest that never lead me into any truth or spirituality and determined their really wasn’t a God.

I married a Rodeo Cowboy, we began a spur business that eventually grew to about 24 employees, and we were the leading spur maker in the world. Bob, my husband also was a rodeo cowboy and rodeo was our life. Bob rode bulls, broncs and bareback horses I ran barrels and everything in our life was centered on the rodeo arena, or the business.

Passing quickly threw time we had two boys, and when the time came for them to attend school we settled in Copeville, TX than later Farmersville, so we could be to centrally located to rodeo.

Than the unspeakable happened I had cancer and was not expected to live. However the small church in the tiny town we lived had found out through my son’s teacher and began fervently to pray for me. They brought us dinners every night and sent me get well cards every day. I never met any of these people except for the cordial exchanges at the door when they brought our dinners. But I know this was a God intervention. I know I would not be alive if it were not for their prayers.

Zipping through time, The Lord healed me. Times were tough on our marriage; the business was always in crisis, and our rodeoing was always a challenge.

One day I decided after crashing at a rodeo, and had enough endless fighting with Bob and finally my new mare throwing me to the ground out in the pasture I had been riding I knew in my heart there had to be something else, something more. God had to be somewhere and if he was real I wanted to know and find him. And so out in a pasture with my marriage about to end, the business always broke and my life seemingly crashing down around my head I got back on my horse and cried out, if there was a God that I would give up the control of my life, that I could no longer handle it alone. At that moment something changed in my entire being. I felt a warmth flowing down from the top of my head to the bottom of my boots. I looked up and there was the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen in my life (and having grown up in Arizona I have seen some beautiful ones). But there it was, it was as if the heavens had opened up and I saw a little part of heaven itself. When I reached home I told Bob that we were going to start going to church. I had thought we would find a Catholic church but there was none in Farmersville, TX and Bob wanted to go to a local church for the boys. So we picked out the First Baptist Church, we were all baptized. We lived in church, we began Christian Rodeo ministries we had bible studies at all our rodeo schools and had our employees praying with us. God was the center of our universe although all we had to know was what we were told was in the Bible, we never sought out the truth of God, we didn’t know how or that there was anything out there that was more.

Moving forward in time again, years had passed with us in this state of obedience to the church, as good sheep. No real spiritual growth within our person, just the same thing. We were considered to be the elite in the little church because of all the legendary status of Bob’s rodeoing and because of this and of our giving we were brought into the politics of the church. The more we were promoted in knowledge of church workings the more disillusioned and discouraged I became. Finally it all came crashing down and I was truly disheartened it seemed like it was all a game again. Spiritually we were no where. All I had wanted was truth even thought I never studied past the doctrine given to me, I knew in my heart because of that day out in the pasture that God was real and somehow I had to find him but I didn’t know how. We tried some different evangelical churches but all in all it was the same.

One of my sons joined the Navy and the other was off to college on a football scholarship, so Bob and I went back out on the road rodeoing full time.

I was determined to find God. What better time, we were living in a camper pulling my horse and free from ties that would mentally keep us attached, be it TV, Friends whatever we were all alone and finally we were at a place God could speak to us.

First thing I did was start looking at the source of Christianity and came to the Jewish beginning. My heart was broken and I cried when I realized like King Josiah, when He was given the book of Gods Law. From that time my life changed I studied fervently. Crazy as it sounds coming out of my mouth or through my typewriter, the Lord woke me up one night and I began writing down what I heard in my head. I have over 200 typed pages in the years it first began when He began teaching me the difference between the soul and spirit, but I will not go into all of that at this time. But I will add the last thing that I was given just a few short months ago. I don’t know if anyone will be interested or if this is an avenue I am to take. I feel led to do this, it may just be me.

At any rate here it is.

June 19,2008
4am
Hearken to my voice says the Lord God Almighty and take heed to what I am saying. I hear your cry I know your heart, be mindful of my word search me, try me, I am a God that does not lie.

There is coming a time soon that I have told you and have been telling since My first man fell. I have been opening up my scriptures that my man in whom I love would know and learn of me would seek me with all his heart. I require everything if you are to walk with me in the cool of the evening.

Things of this earth are falling away preparing for My new time to come. My new kingdom on earth that I can reign openly in the hearts of my people. Know this that if I tell you something that I have the ability to perform that which I have said.

You say you want me in control? Do you know what that entails? Do you know what sacrifices you will have to give up? Do you want it enough to change your heart radically? (I answered yes) than I will do this thing that I have promised you years ago. That I would speak through you that it wouldn’t be you but me speaking through you. But the cost is great. Yes the rewards are worth it; the peace of mind in knowing your obedience is everything.

(At this second I wondered about my soul being in control.)

Things of this way of thinking are coming apart like the unraveling of a garment, the picture that was formed and held in bondage by the soul is coming apart, and people don’t know why they do not know of Me. They only know and hold fast to their traditions, the things that speak comfort to them.

Living on the edge of understanding is a hard place for the living soul. Everything about its existence and the way life is viewed is of its own making. Yes a matrix of sorts, it’s an illusion.

Your eyes are opening to new things that I will bring forth to you and you will
Know that I Am in them because you won’t know of them in your soul. My child in whom I love, be at peace and let My word open up what I will reveal. Do not be lax, do not be fearful, do not be lazy or of a mindset that that will lock Me out. This is a time that no man knows that I speak, that will reveal this truth. Hearken to Me and in the little things that will reveal in My truth. Meditate on My word that I can expand your knowledge, get understanding. Hold fast My child I will show you, I will teach you what My truth is.

(I asked why I was still working at Home Depot and if I was supposed to be there?)

Home Depot is a test that I have needed to show you your weakness. To show how much your soul is in control. You asked to be there I granted it. It was not what I desired for your life. I wanted so much more for you. Yes, I will bring you out when My time is ready and your heart is ready. When I know you are able to stand and keep your heart, for out of it flows the issues, secrets, of life.

merge with what I have placed in yours also. I will open a door that he will know is Me. I will reveal Myself to him.

(I was wondering why all the things I make and things that I can do have not come about to get me out of Home Depot and why they don’t make us any money)

Have you not noticed that I have not allowed the things you would like to come about to manifest? They are not the things of Me but of you!

I have heard your prayers. When you study and know My Heart I will be able to show you My place for your life. Things have to come together. I am preparing them but it is not the time. I know in your heart you sense this.

I was reflecting on the scripture I had been working on the night before in Proverbs 1:1 “To know” it led me to Genesis 3:5 “For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods; knowing good and evil.”)

Know the eyes of your understanding could be enlightened, yes will see clearly, not threw the haze that is called memory, your mind, telling what you see! The truth of good and evil is everything

(I stopped writing because a little bird was chirping the same note over and over it was 4 am)

That little bird singing out your window is you chirping, the same things with your locked up mind. Hearken to My Word everything you want is there and your spirit can unlock the power in the hidden meaning. Be of good cheer.

(I asked about what truth was in some things I have been studying, that were not in the word)

I have unlocked truth in the earth and those that receive it will be able to unlock portions. The problem is they come at it with all their interpretations and things that they are subject to so they don’t have all the truth, just a part. That is why you have to lay everything out on the table of choice to all that which is truth to join other bits of truth in order to form a new covering a new piece of cloth a continual new whole. That will serve as a covering to the mind, but be careful not to jump at one truth and try to conform it and slap it in a box and call it My truth. For no one has My complete truth. Many like you who are searching have laid on the table pieces and are trying to locate more and are careful not to add their own and try to fit them together.

(I was wondering why it seemed like some worldly preachers were so rich, and had so many things. They focus on prosperity using Bible verses to make it happen. So I wondered if this type of thing should be my focus.)

For some that want to possess truth they do this thing and the power that lies in their spirit will allow things to manifest but it is not My truth and I Am not pleased with My spirits who get caught up in the worldly lies and allow their power to be corrupted. Their ways are not My way. Even though it looks like they are working in My power it is not as I would have it. So be careful to listen to your spirit in whom I love and allow him to reveal My truth as you study to be approved for My Spirit cannot reveal unto you that which you do not know.

June 24, 2008
2:30 am

There is coming upon the earth a sight that My man in whom I love will have to stand. He will have to stand believing and trusting in Me. He will have to begin preparing for this now, for if My man does not begin now than it will be to late. For My time is drawing to an end that I will deal with My gentiles. For I will once again turn My attention to My Jewish Nation for things are coming together fast. The unseen world in which you walk but cannot touch or see is as real as that you do see and do feel. My people are preparing themselves for this. The power of My believers who will be able to stand are this day beginning to seek Me and My ways with all their hearts.

The spirit realm in which is a mystery to you is not as far away as you would imagine. If you close your eyes and have enough faith in what I say is truth you can see it. Not in your physical eyes that lie and deceive you but in your spirit living within the real entity within your life.

Know that to prepare your life you must seek Me while you can still find Me. When I still have the power in the physical realm. But as that power begins to fade the souls that have been in control will be subject to things that will run them, like putting a ring in a bulls nose to lead, so will these people that do not know Me or My truth will go. They will be subject to acts that they could not ever imagine they would do, for they no longer have the power over the elements and forces that can control and dominate them.

This is why it is so important now while the power to accomplish and overcome the powers that are trying to bring about these changes to come about, will not be able. Because My people, who are beginning to take, hold of My Kingdom power are bringing within their lives the ability to stand and refuse the force that would manipulate and control. But because this is coming so fast it is necessary that you take heed to My Word. Know My voice, that when I lead, I will be the only one you follow. For if you do not than you will find yourself in situations that you could never imagine you would be in. The cruelty and hate that will mix with the fear will have an astounding ability to hold those in bondage and will make them as robots, slaves, and their spirit living within them will be powerless to overcome. And those spirits that will be seeking this, and will embrace it, will be as an abomination to Me. For their power will be that of a contributing force to bring about the misery that is coming. The helplessness and fear will be so prevalent; food will be in short supply to those that cannot stand. Because they will be so deceived, but the love that I will be overcoming in My people who can stand will bring about in there lives, all that they need. They will be able to do things that the mind cannot conceive. For truly My Kingdom power will be manifested within their lives, and the power of My righteousness will emanate throughout the universe.

You must tell those who would hear to prepare to listen to their spirit living within. They must pray for My Spirit living within them to in-power their spirit.

(I asked what I was supposed to do with this information. It doesn’t seem like I have any ability to create or make anything happen in my life by my own doing, even when I pray and pray and expect to see the change or door open, seems like nothing happens and even though I feel I am to do something I on my own cannot bring it about.)

I know that this seems like something that there is no way for you to do, but trust and know that I will open the door. I will bring into your life the needed thing that will bring it to pass. But it is of the essence that you stay in-powered in My Word that you do not worry about the things that try to deceive you, that fill your mind with lack and fear. For I said in My Word that if you believe and have faith (trust) in Me that I will supply all your needs.

My child can’t you see yet what you are and think is an illusion to you that the only way you can bring it to pass is if you believe and make it yours by not standing on My Word, not standing on My Truth. Not standing on the things that I have given you in My Word.

(I asked again, What do I do with this?)

You do nothing except hold fast to My Truth and read My Word, study and see what it is saying. For I Am opening the doors of truth and am knocking on the door of the mind to open unto Me that I may bring them to a place of safety with Me. I will show you things that you think you see dimly but as My revelation comes closer so will the things of Me become clearer.

I will give you a sign and an open door watch closely. Keep your mind under submission, watch the thoughts, for out of your thoughts reveal your heart, out of your mouth comes that which you believe, that can either allow you to stand and refuse the lies or will fall victim to the lies and will not be able to stand.

As My door opens you will be able to experience the joy of my purpose in your life. Your spirit will become the force and power In all your thoughts and in all your actions. That is the way that My Truth (faith) will be revealed unto you. This is why it is so important that you begin now to day while you still have today to make the commitment to stand and to share with others My Truth.

It is not your responsibility to bring this about, to find the people that would know this, but mine, to open the door to bring it to pass.

I know that you beat yourself up trying to do this and trying to figure ways to make it happen. But it only hinders Me because My child, I have all the needed power and living within you is more power than you could ever dream. So rest assured that all you have to do is clean the computer, loose the things that are automatic, forget that you are an earthly entity and let your spirit lead and direct. You must develop this trust and bond. My spiritual armor will help you in this.

Watch the signs that are beginning to fall over my people like a haze or fog that blinds them from what is actual truth. This is how they will believe the lie.

I know that you have many questions and are continually trying to understand. This is when faith comes in trusting that which I said I would do I have the power to accomplish it.

You are not the only one that I Am revealing this truth to and those that I Am between you will have desired power to accomplish My plan. But the part of the puzzle each of you play will not manifest until it is the time to come together.

As My Son lingers within this gentile realm it will not be for long. So watch in your spirit, learn how to die to self that the computer can be shut down and re-started with My Spirit in control of your emotional mouse.

I long to share My Love with people who are obedient to Me and will love and serve Me with all their hearts, not with what they believe in their minds to be truth, but that in their spirits living within them.

Just as a flower is dormant in winter but begins to sprout forth in the spring and finally opens to it’s full potential. So is My spirit living within My people whose spirits were once dormant but are now beginning to sprout up threw the earth (the souls, earth, realm)
And will soon bloom In all My beauty if watered, pruned and nurtured. But just as the promise of My flowers to bloom so do the weeds that would sprout forth and choke everything in its grasp. That’s how the things in this souls realm work. Binding and choking My Spirit living within the earth suit. That has given itself over to the all encompassing weed, and the lies that surround it.

Hold fast to what I have said. Wait for My door to open. Prove yourself as you begin to stand refusing the trillions of thoughts that make up the fabric of your belief and your world. Know My Truth, that it will set you free, empower, your spirit living within you with My Holy Spirit to do all things that I have prepared and ordered.